Daily Blessings

Throughout this fertility journey, no matter how much life has thrown at me, I will remember my blessings & affirmations each day.

Archive for the month “October, 2013”

Sunshine Award

What a nice gift on a Tuesday.  My blog has been nominated for a Sunshine Award! Very exciting indeed.  I want to thank Jesselyn over at http://everylittlethingsgonnabealright.wordpress.com/ for my nomination. This is an award that is given to writers who brighten other people’s days. I feel like my blogs are 90% madness / 10% humorous. If they brighten your day, then you too must be a little mad.  As my buddy the Mad Hatter says, “We’re all mad here.”

sunshine award


So, here are the rules:

  • Include the Sunshine Award icon in your post
  • Include a link to the blogger who nominated you (above)
  • Answer 10 questions about yourself
  • Nominate 10 other bloggers to receive the award
  • Link to your nominees and let them know you nominated them


Here are the 10 questions that were asked of me:

  1. What is your deepest fear? Failure. Failure at _________.  Insert about any word.
  2. If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it? freaking sock a lot away for fertility treatments, probably buy a ton of baby swag, get new cars, invest & donate.
  3. Why do you blog? Anonymous blogging is one of the only non-judgmental outlets I have when it comes to my fertility journey. I’m still “in the closet” to 90% of my real life friends. Blogging also lets me interact and relate to others who go through similar circumstances.
  4. If you could have dinner with anyone, living or dead, who would it be? I’d have to say my husband, because I miss him so much.
  5. When you were a child, what did you want to be when you grew up? architect, horticulturalist and/or a Broadway star.
  6. What is a meal from childhood that you crave? I don’t particularly remember eating anything too appetizing as a youngster. I crave macaroni & cheese and my mom’s Thanksgiving stuffing.
  7. Name 3 of your weirdest quirks. Only 3??? 1) I sing to my cat.  I make up lyrics to existing songs, but also have some originals.  2) I use hand sanitizer like a mofo, total germaphobe. But this is for many reasons. I have a bad immune system & I am a med tech (lab worker) by trade. 3) I have to have all my pillows (5) perfectly aligned before I go to sleep. I also can’t have to pillowcases bunching up, they have to be smooth. 
  8. What quality of your hero do you wish you had? Complete faith in God & also myself.
  9. What is the one thing that can always make you smile when you feel really sad? The Golden Girls & pictures of cats lol
  10. What kind of candy describes you and why? A chocolate truffle.  Looks plain on the outside, but on the inside it’s gooey and delicious.

And the nominees are:


Here are your 10 questions to answer:

1) When you got nominated, did you sing “You are my sunshine” in your head?
2) Why & when did you start your blog?
3) Name 3 ways your fertility journey has impacted your life today.
4) If you could go back, what would you do differently?
5) … what would you keep the same?
6) Name an embarrassing story so we can all laugh at you… errrr with you!
7) Do you have a favorite vacation that you’ve took?
8) Name one thing you have to get accomplished this week, no matter how big or small.
9) State one tidbit of advice for those still strolling on the journey towards reaching their goal of a baby.
10) Favorite dessert?




I am posting this in order to hold myself accountable for not updating on my fertility journey, or lack thereof.  I promise to post an update in the next week.  My DH is still gone & there is nothing life shattering happening at the moment, so don’t get your panties in a bunch 🙂


Melatonin: My New Frenemy

I have to confess that I’ve been taking sublingual vitamins for 2+ months now for sleep.  They’re produced by Nature Made and they’re appropriately called VitaMelts SLEEP.  A friend of mine came to visit a couple months ago and she let me try them. She’s a night shift worker just like I used to be a night shift worker… and 2 years later my body still has sleep issues.  Anyways, they worked. 

So I’ve been taking 1 pill about every night.  It’s a tasty little chocolate flavored bedtime snack. They whisper, “here… you’ve had a rough day…you deserve a restful slumber.”  Well thank you vitamelt, don’t mind if I do. 

Well all that shit hit the fan today. I have absolutely no idea how I stumbled upon this information, but I’m glad I did.  I know back when I was TTC a long time ago I did some research about melatonin and decided I should refrain from taking it. I think I found out why. This is directly from the Mayo Clinic’s website. And it’s regarding Melatonin:

“Avoid use in women who are pregnant or are attempting to become pregnant, based on possible hormonal effects and a possible increased risk of developmental disorders.” 

Pregnancy and Breastfeeding  

“Melatonin supplementation should be avoided in women who are pregnant or attempting to become pregnant, based on possible hormonal effects. High levels of melatonin during pregnancy may increase the risk of developmental disorders. In animal studies, melatonin was detected in breast milk and therefore should be avoided during breastfeeding. In men, decreased sperm motility and decreased sperm count are reported with the use of melatonin.”


So the last part is what troubles me the most, because my husband has told me he has recently been using a sleep aid (Dream Water… another delicious sleep treat). Of course, I immediately emailed him this info and the link to the website, swearing to also kick my melatonin habit.
What’s ironic is I had already taken my pill before I started this blog entry.

*sigh* so long old friend…

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