Daily Blessings

Throughout this fertility journey, no matter how much life has thrown at me, I will remember my blessings & affirmations each day.

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Sunshine Award

What a nice gift on a Tuesday.  My blog has been nominated for a Sunshine Award! Very exciting indeed.  I want to thank Jesselyn over at http://everylittlethingsgonnabealright.wordpress.com/ for my nomination. This is an award that is given to writers who brighten other people’s days. I feel like my blogs are 90% madness / 10% humorous. If they brighten your day, then you too must be a little mad.  As my buddy the Mad Hatter says, “We’re all mad here.”

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So, here are the rules:

  • Include the Sunshine Award icon in your post
  • Include a link to the blogger who nominated you (above)
  • Answer 10 questions about yourself
  • Nominate 10 other bloggers to receive the award
  • Link to your nominees and let them know you nominated them

 

Here are the 10 questions that were asked of me:

  1. What is your deepest fear? Failure. Failure at _________.  Insert about any word.
  2. If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it? freaking sock a lot away for fertility treatments, probably buy a ton of baby swag, get new cars, invest & donate.
  3. Why do you blog? Anonymous blogging is one of the only non-judgmental outlets I have when it comes to my fertility journey. I’m still “in the closet” to 90% of my real life friends. Blogging also lets me interact and relate to others who go through similar circumstances.
  4. If you could have dinner with anyone, living or dead, who would it be? I’d have to say my husband, because I miss him so much.
  5. When you were a child, what did you want to be when you grew up? architect, horticulturalist and/or a Broadway star.
  6. What is a meal from childhood that you crave? I don’t particularly remember eating anything too appetizing as a youngster. I crave macaroni & cheese and my mom’s Thanksgiving stuffing.
  7. Name 3 of your weirdest quirks. Only 3??? 1) I sing to my cat.  I make up lyrics to existing songs, but also have some originals.  2) I use hand sanitizer like a mofo, total germaphobe. But this is for many reasons. I have a bad immune system & I am a med tech (lab worker) by trade. 3) I have to have all my pillows (5) perfectly aligned before I go to sleep. I also can’t have to pillowcases bunching up, they have to be smooth. 
  8. What quality of your hero do you wish you had? Complete faith in God & also myself.
  9. What is the one thing that can always make you smile when you feel really sad? The Golden Girls & pictures of cats lol
  10. What kind of candy describes you and why? A chocolate truffle.  Looks plain on the outside, but on the inside it’s gooey and delicious.

And the nominees are:

http://ahundredaffections.wordpress.com/
http://ourlastembryoblog.wordpress.com/
http://alliwanttodooo.wordpress.com/
http://ambivalentjourney.wordpress.com/
http://newtoivf.wordpress.com/
http://inconceivable12.wordpress.com/
http://frommybathtub.wordpress.com/
http://thoughtprovokingmoments.wordpress.com/
http://barrenandunemployed.wordpress.com/
http://survivingbabydreams.wordpress.com/

Here are your 10 questions to answer:

1) When you got nominated, did you sing “You are my sunshine” in your head?
2) Why & when did you start your blog?
3) Name 3 ways your fertility journey has impacted your life today.
4) If you could go back, what would you do differently?
5) … what would you keep the same?
6) Name an embarrassing story so we can all laugh at you… errrr with you!
7) Do you have a favorite vacation that you’ve took?
8) Name one thing you have to get accomplished this week, no matter how big or small.
9) State one tidbit of advice for those still strolling on the journey towards reaching their goal of a baby.
10) Favorite dessert?

and…………..GO!

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One Year Anny

Knock on wood, but it’s a relief to be feeling normal again physically. Back to my old self.

I have been puttering around the house, finally cleaning, organizing, & running a couple errands when I decided to finally have a seat and relax. Of course there’s never really time for relaxation, as there’s always weird TTC research to be done. 

But then I remembered, I needed to write in my blog what I was thankful for today. So I came here and logged onto WordPress. I had a little trophy picture at the top of my blog: “Happy Anniversary with WordPress.”  So it’s been a year. I could take it someplace dark and say, it’s been a year and I am still childless and no better off than I was when I started this damn thing.

OR I could suck up the pain, try to stay positive, and say that despite still being childless, I’ve grown & learned so much this past year. Sometimes I feel like the’ Little Engine Who Could’; I somehow keep chugging along even when I feel like giving up. But there’s hope. Somewhere there’s hope. There’s got to be a light at the end of this tunnel. Hasn’t there?

So, today I am thankful to have some strength back, ‘The Bible’ on the History Channel, good friends, & learning how to practice patience.

 

Two-thousand thirteen

2012 brought a lot of memories for me. Some good, some bad.

Right after Christmas, my husband had to leave the state for work for a month unexpectantly. This was the first time we were apart for that long since we had been living together. A month later, my dad got very sick, but recovered & we got married…for me, this was the 2nd time. It seems like an extremely faint, yet lurking memory that I was ever even married previously. Its something that will haunt me forever I suppose. I started seeing new OB/GYN’s and together, we tried to start solving the puzzle of my infertility.

We enjoyed exploring our new city in springtime, I worked at the Farmer’s Market for the first time, and we visited with friends and family. My husband got promoted at work and we prayed spring would bring many more blessings.

The summer came quickly & a lot of new things were happening. We had an insanely stressful visit home to see family, followed by an upcoming move (again) and I had my first RE appointment. It was a bit of a whirlwind. I took Clomid for the first time ever & got surprisingly got pregnant…for the 3rd time. And for the 3rd time, it ended in an early loss. But I had hope.

It was a rocky end to the summer, but as autumn approached, things eventually got better. We both celebrated birthdays, carved pumpkins & visited more family and friends during the holiday season. I did my first injectable cycle.

The cycle wasn’t a success & we both knew we needed a break. Some time away. Just for us.
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Our Christmas vacation / honeymoon was great. It was exactly what we needed & felt rejuvinated. We loved it. We visited more family, enjoyed Christmas with relatives, then got ready to say goodbye to 2012 as we settled back into “normal” life again.

Late night on New Year's Eve we got a call that my husband's cousin had been killed in a car accident. He had hit a tree and died. He was 22.

As we head into 2013, I have to be thankful & count my blessings. Things could have been a lot worse last year. Life was worse for a lot of people. I pray that God has big plans for me this year. I know that when God takes a life from this world, He creates a life. I pray & plead He creates a life within me.

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