Daily Blessings

Throughout this fertility journey, no matter how much life has thrown at me, I will remember my blessings & affirmations each day.

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CD 6

Cycle Day 6 and my dear friend AF is coming to an end. It came, it saw, it conquered, and it was relatively uneventful. I find this surprisingly reassuring.

Now, what do I do next?

I think the answer is nothing… yet.

Under recommendations, I can’t do anything TTC-related until 6 months after my beta reached 0, which puts me into late-November. So that gives me a few months to get healthy and somewhat back to normal. Whatever the heck normal is.

I know I’ll change my mind a hundred times between now & then, so we’ll just see what tomorrow holds.



A Month of Freedom from Fertility

My friend AF has come and gone & my box o’ fertility meds has arrived. I’ve neatly placed everything in my hall closet, in an ordered fashion. My closet aka My pharmacy. It makes me feel good to know I am nice & stocked up for my next cycle. One less thing to worry about.  I received a call today from a new nurse from my RE office, ensuring I was going forward with the February cycle, etc. I was surprised it was not my regular nurse, Jean, who called. I’ve built a nice relationship with her. When I returned the phone call, I inquired where Jean was, to make sure something bad didn’t happen to her. (You never know). Well, she has taken another job & left!

I felt my heart sink a little bit. I have a really hard time bonding with fellow medical professionals, but her & I had a special relationship. Turns out, the “new” nurse is actually the clinic’s IVF coordinator nurse and has 16 years experience. She assured me not to worry, she would take care of me. This made me feel alot better, though I will definitely miss her.

My husband is traveling a bit for work, and I miss him. During the day, it’s not bad because I try to keep myself occupied. But at nighttime, all I have is a stinky little dog & my cat to keep me company in bed. It’s rather sad & lonely, but I’m getting through it.

I have been trying my best to keep my mind calm & zen. The zen part… well it’s coming along. I am thankful I have this month of freedom. Freedom from the woes of fertility. It’s been quite nice to leave my thermometer in my night stand drawer and not set my early morning alarm. I’m trying to focus inward, doing some soul searching about my ever-changing path in this world.

Things will always pop-up that will rock the boat, challenge your patience, or knock you down off of your mountain… Yes, that same mountain you’ve been climbing and falling down for years. It’s just trying to find the stamina & strength to keep climbing.





CD5-7 & furbabies

On Cycle Day 5 AF is slowly tapering off. I had to take my precious furbaby to the vet. The last time she got really sick, I was pregnant (and didn’t know until that evening). That fact was running through my head, along with other worries, as I let her bury her face in me on the vet table.

I knew it wasn't anything serious, but it's still hard seeing your pet scared. We walked away from the office with 3 pills & a bandaid (mine) from her scratching the shit out of me lol. What's most important is we're both going to be fine.

"Furbaby" is a fairly new term I learned when I began this TTC journey. I've been watching the Sher Institute "I Believe" videos this week & that term is in almost all of them.
One thing most all infertile (I hate that word) couples have in common is their pets act as their children. Most of us love them with all our hearts. They are an integral part of our family & we'd be lost without them. But as much as I love my cat who has been with me for 7 years, I know I have more love to give. Different love.

Check out the videos because voting begins on December 11th. These couples have put their vulnerable stories out there to receive the awesome reward of a free IVF cycle from Sher. I have no idea if I'll vote, but watching other couple's stories really breaks by heart & gives me hope at the same time. It's a strange yet familiar feeling… but that's what TTC is all about.

Friday, CD6 and AF decided to stick around for an additional day. Albeit light, my AF doesn not usually last this long. I contribute it to the lovenox + the hormones associated with the last cycle. I have to say that something got me in the Christmas spirit today. When I got home in the afternoon, I decorated the house finally. I also cleaned like a maniac!
I think where it started was… I own my own small craft business & was dropping off a final shipment to someone. We ended up talking openly about both of our fertility journeys. I found out that she too went through treatments 17 years ago. But she had chose a different route ultimately & adopted her 3 children. I had no idea! I guess when you let your guard down a bit with people who you trust, you find out that they are not so unlike yourself. She assured me to stop worrying, that God always had a plan for us. And that I was still young 😉 Also, one of my bff’s got her 2nd beta yesterday and it was so high! She has been through the ringer with infertility & her success gives me continued hope.

Saturday has just begun and *fingers crosses* the B is finally gone. My husband and I are going to get a small Christmas tree today. I guess its sort of silly, since in a week we will be on vacation. But I feel like we need a little holly jolly up in the house, since it’s been rather gloomy lately.

Til next time…

C is for Cupcake

My friend posted this picture on my Facebook wall because it reminded her of me. I’m not really sure where the “cupcake” nickname or obsession started, honestly. All I know is cupcakes are so delicious, cute, and are always the perfect size. Silly cupcake pictures & angry cartoon cupcakes also make me extremely happy.


Hey back!

This has nothing to do with anything, but it made me smile. Today, I’m thankful for cupcakes.

On a TTC note, I’m CD6 & on day 2 of clomid. I got a bit dizzy/lightheaded and nauseous a couple hours after I took it today, but as soon as I ate dinner all was well. I was a baaaaad girl today and had a burger {well half a burger}, fries & ice cream. OINK. I am back on the bandwagon starting tomorrow. All that traveling threw my healthy eating habits for a loop, and they haven’t fully recovered. And this is not how I want to be eating while TTC. Good nutrition is so important for mom and baby.

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